Thursday, April 12, 2007

4.12.2007: Considering Personal Failures (Lesson Number One)

The Guy and The Instructor.

THE INSTRUCTOR
Let’s begin with something simple, today shall we?

Model!

The Guy Back When emerges.

THE INSTRUCTOR
What we have here is a perfect example of what we were talking about before. Tell us, young man, what do you want?

THE GUY BACK WHEN
I want to be a playwright.

THE INSTRUCTOR
Very good. You see even at this age (the subject is twenty), there is a clear direction. A very tangible and attainable goal. “I want to be a playwright.” Very good.

Now tell us what you’re doing about it.

THE GUY BACK WHEN
Nothing.

THE INSTRUCTOR
See, and this is where things get a little cloudy. “Nothing.” He’s doing nothing to attain that goal. That clear and tangible goal.

THE GUY BACK WHEN
I have reasons.

THE INSTRUCTOR
They always have reasons.

THE GUY BACK WHEN
So it’s not like I’m just doing nothing.

THE INSTRUCTOR
This kind of subject – the subject who aspires without active involvement in what he aspires to – always seems to think that the doing of nothing with good intention constitutes doing something.

THE GUY BACK WHEN
I’m still in school.

THE INSTRUCTOR
And what do you do when you finish?

THE GUY BACK WHEN
I don’t finish.

THE INSTRUCTOR
And what do you do when you don’t finish?

THE GUY BACK WHEN
I stay here.

THE INSTRUCTOR
Exactly.

THE GUY BACK WHEN
But I told you. There are reasons…

THE INSTRUCTOR
This is done without judgment, young man. Merely as an example to prevent the mistakes of the past from being repeated.

The Instructor turns his gaze on the Guy.

THE INSTRUCTOR (cont.)
Consider yourself and what the years that followed this felt like.
Because you’re coming up on a difficult time,
and you know how you get during difficult times.

You cannot allow yourself to repeat the mistakes of the past.
You can feel as fondly as you want about him
but he made mistakes.

Errors.

There is nothing that can be done to change that fact.

Learn from your experience.

Class dismissed.

The Instructor leaves. The Guy and The Guy Back When contemplate each other.
The lights go down.

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